Don't Back Down

A beautiful Thursday morning of only 50 degrees Fahrenheit has me recalculating the plans of the universe. For the first time in years, the stars are aligning and I’m a bit leery to hope too high. I have high expectations for my life and my family’s lives. I make a point to state them often. But my aspirations have been stomped on repeatedly over the past ten years. So, I prepare myself to deflect that feeling of dejected disappointment that stings so deeply when opportunities fall through the sieve like shifting sands.

I plug along, doing what I do. Making plans, moving the pawns and pieces in my life size game of chess. Waiting patiently, with a quiet secret hope that everything will be as I think it should. My determination is the unyielding force driving the events of my life in the direction of my dreams. Faltering only in momentum lost at the setbacks of changing winds and uncharted territories. I will not rescind my demands for a life worth living, filled with hope and joy, love and learning. I will not back down.

On Life and Living

We spend our days fighting lions and finding hidden treasures. We fight for what we believe, for the glory is not in the prize but in the struggle. It’s not the crown that brings you glory, but the victory that took you there. The fight for what you believe. The tenacity to continue to rise above each and every obstacle thrown in your way. The universe fights against you, but you continue on. You won’t give up. You won’t give in. Quitting is not an option, there are only deviations in the path. New trajectories found. But you go on. Seeking. Searching. For what to be found? It is a mystery. And at the end of the path, we find not joy in our taking, but joy in our living. It is not the end which brings us peace, but a moment of rest. And then the journey begins again. For we are never satisfied until we are seeking, searching, and living.